The Lola Kay Tribute Fund
The following morning my fiance, Ste, brought Darcie (our 2 year old princess) to meet her baby sis, such a fantastic feeling for all of us (when 3 became 4!!!). We took Lola home; family/friends visited & all seemed wonderful, how lucky we felt!
Lola appeared healthy, however, we became concerned as days passed as she didn't feed too well and appeared unsettled at times. Since Lola was born she made quiet 'squeaky' noises which at the time appeared to comfort Lola. Lola then developed slight jaundice so we saw a midwife and was reassured many times (by all professionals involved in Lola's care)- that this was all common in newborns, and there was no need to worry. Though we remained anxious we trusted the professional's judgement & persistantly tried to nurse baby Lola & give her good feeds, expecting the Jaundice to go, and Lola to become more settled & content.
On Thurs 10th April, Lola spent most of the night on the settee in her Daddy's arms as she just would not settle; this was most upsetting & frustrating as we just wanted our little baby to rest comfortably in her cot. The next day Lola appeared to take more milk & settle, which was reassuring. We began to relax a bit thinking that the Jaundice was going & Lola was more content.
On Sat 12th we awoke early, Ste went to the kitchen for Lola's next milk & I heard Lola 'gasp for air'-as though it was her last breath. I screamed for Ste to come to the bedroom; as I feared that my worst nightmare was coming true. Whilst I was frantic Ste picked baby Lola out of her cot, and she had collapsed. I rang 999 & my amazing partner began CPR & saved our beautiful Lola's life. Our home was filled with fear & panic & we was soon rushed to Blackburn Royal Hospital. We were so scared for our precious new baby, yet all we could do was hope and pray everything would be ok.
It was now clear that our beautiful child was somehow very poorly. Our lives had been turned upside down, but we continued to be so strong, as we were informed that Lola had stopped breathing due to a possible chest infection, hopefully she would fight this off.
After approx 12 hours at Blackburn Hospital, Lola was having difficulty breathing for herself, and so was transferred to Pendlebury Children's Hospital for specialised care. This heightened our fears, but we remained hopeful that Lola would fight this & our nightmare would soon be over.
Soon Lola was stabalised, she began breathing for herself, taking feeds and eventually opened her eyes - all amazing progress it seemed. When little Lola opened her big blue eyes and appeared soothed and comforted by our touch, we nicknamed her 'our little Robocop'-how strong she was!
We could not help but get excited by the progress our girl appeared to be making and we quietly believed that our nightmare would soon be over. We could not wait to hold her again, and take her home when she was better.
It suddenly became clear that Lola was much more poorly than everybody had expected, as we was informed that whilst we had been having a brief rest Lola had had three seizures. Our hearts sank, and as we witnessed the next seizure ourselves, I knew in my head that Lola was now in serious trouble. Ste also knew that this was a sign of deterioration but struggled to accept this & still appeared quite hopeful whilst we awaited the results of the scan.
Our hopes & dreams were suddenly destroyed as the consultant informed us of the results of Lola's brain scan. Our perfect little baby girl had EColi Meningitis & Septicaemia and its severity left us with no option but to let our little angel finally go to sleep. On Tues 15 April (when Lola was just 8 days old) that heartbreaking moment came & Lola died in her Mummy & Daddy's arms; she looked so beautiful & peaceful.
It is now just five months later, our pain is still so strong as we all miss Lola so so much, it feels so tragic that we were unable to give Lola the life which she so deserved.
What we can do is keep Lola's memory alive, and with the amazing help & support from others, we will continue to achieve this in every way possible.
Our love for Lola will live forever!
Miss claire louise kay
December 26, 2008
we think about you every day and miss you more than words can say to a special little princess love and kisses always auntie claire,uncle dean,ellie and finlay xxxxxx
Miss charlotte duckworth
December 31, 2008
Mummy & Daddy light this candle for you Baby Lola.. thankyou for all the precious memories you gave us in 2008, wish that you could be here to start 2009 with us!
Forever in our hearts our beautiful angel in heaven X
Mrs Frankie Thompson
April 8, 2009
Hi Lola We think of you and your family often and now especially at this time. You're a very special girl loved so much by everyone. God Bless xoxo Tich & Frankie & Paul
Miss charlotte duckworth
June 30, 2009
thinking of you little princess lola,your auntie ada xxxxxx
Miss CHARLOTTE DUCKWORTH
April 7, 2010
HAPPY 2ND BIRTHDAY LOVE U ALWAYS, MUMMY, DADDY, DARCIE, RUBI XX
Miss charlotte duckworth
April 7, 2010
HAPPY 2ND BIRTHDAY LOLA LOVE ALWAYS GRANDMA BERYL & GRANDAD PETER XX
Miss charlotte duckworth
April 7, 2010
HAPPY BIRTHDAY LOLA LOVE AUNTY ADA XX
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Your 3rd sis!
Well Scarlett Peaches is now nearly six months old, busy exciting times!. As a newborn, she really had a look of you, at times, which was difficult at times as it brought such strong memories/feeling back, but also magical as it brings the past and future together. Even though we have 3 girlies, we miss our Lola dearly, there should be 4 (and there is...in our hearts).
Scarlett, like Darc n Rubes, will grow up talking and thinking abou you, you will always be a massive part of our family life.
Darcie asks about you often, and wants to know more as she gets older, she feels sadness that we lost you, but is very proud of you, and always writes your name in cards.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY FOR NEXT SATURDAY, love from your loving family xxxx
Posted on March 31, 2012
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Not long to go now (7 weeks) until baby number 4 will be here!. Getting rather impatient, & a little anxious- hope everything is fine!!!.
The memories of you come flooding back more than ever when mummy is pregnant & especially as it gets near my due date, when baby arrives.
You are always with us, in our hearts.
Millions of kisses to you xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
Posted on September 9, 2011
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We are all very happy that mummy is pregnant again (only early days- 7 weeks). We just felt it was the right time for another addition to our lovely family.
Wonder what the sex will be- I'm betting on another girly!. We wud be amazed if it is a boy, haha. Well whatever the sex all is great as long as baby is healthy & happy.
I feel happy knowing that each of your siblings will hold a special place for you in their hearts, & will keep your memory alive throughout their lives!
XXX
Posted on March 16, 2011
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Baby Lola, as you know, your sisters love you so much, they both talk about you lots, Darcie is always mentioning you (in such lovely ways) & Rubi likes looking at your beautiful photographs, she says "Lola" almost every time she passes the landing, where one of your many photos are!. you will always be a very big part of all our lives!
Love u x.
Posted on March 16, 2011
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It was a lovely sunny day, as it always is on your birthday/anniversaries. We let of a huge 2 balloon at special place, where we put beautiful flowers, cards, and teddies. We got you a little cake and sang 'happy birthday to you, Darcie blew out your candles, & we took lots of photos. It was a nice day in your memory!
On the evening before the anniversary of when you went to sleep, we spent time looking through all of your stuff, some wonderful memories!, then we let off a 'heart wish lantern', hope you liked your little messages.
Miss you darling daughter, always xx
Posted on April 15, 2010
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We celebrated your special day with family, we all went to the 'special place' & released 100 balloons (8 pink & 92 Meningitis Trust balloons), we decorated your special place with cards, flowers & gifts (it looks beautiful), then we all came back home, looked at your online trubutes & your baby book, then lit your 1 candle on your big yummy chocolate cake!
We took loads of pics for family, & for your baby book!
We planned to let off your 'angel wish lantern' when it went dark- but it was way too windy, so we all wrote birthday messages on & we plan to let it off tomorrow for the anniversary of when you went to be an angel.
Wish we could have celebrated your birthday properly darling, with you here enjoying it like you should have been. Love and miss you always & forever! Mummy Daddy n Darcie XXXXXXXX
Posted on April 14, 2009
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So...its your 1st birthday next Tuesday darling,
know you will be watching over us & just hope we can make your day as special as possible.
You will have special cards & gifts, a cake, lots & lots of balloons, and much more
- but it will never be enough!
Wish you was still here with us, can't beleive its been a year, can't imagine how stunning you would be, bet your a beautiful angel!
Not long to go til your little Sis arrives...just seven weeks. We are calling her Ruby Lola, there will always be only one Lola, as there is one Darcie, & one Ruby, but we think that by giving Ruby this middle name it will be a lovely way of keeping your memory alive, and am sure Ruby will be so proud of it when she is older!.
We all miss and love you so much baby Lola,
always in our hearts millions of kisses sent to you in heaven xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
Posted on March 30, 2009
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Today we went for our 5 month scan (Ste, Darcie & I). Darcie was very excited, stating that it was another Sister, we decided that we would find out the baby's sex this time...a lovely suprise for now, to make this pregnancy feel more real & give us a focus ,it is a difficult time emotionally as it brings out all kinds of mixed feelings such as happiness, guilt, worry, and anger (complicated stuff).
All that matters ofcourse is that this baby lives a healthy long life, but we were overjoyed to discover that we will be having another baby Girly, we both had a feeling that it would be another girl, Ste always jokes that he is outnumbered and that he is going to be the only man in a house full of demanding women, he secretely loves it, & we think its right that the girls rule... as did our precious Baby Lola, who was a Daddy's girl from day 1!.
We will soon be preparing for the arrival of our 3rd child (due on 18th May 09),who will grow up with so much love for her two big sisters, Big D, & little angel Lola.
Lola, you will always be our beautiful second child, just as special & important as our other children.
Love you so much always baby girl, Love Mumi, Dadi, Big Sis, and Little Sis in mummy's belly xxxx
Posted on December 30, 2008
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It didn't feel right this year.. that Christmas was celebrated without our Lola. You never even got chance to spend a single Christmas in this world, yet you should have been 8 & a half months this 1st Christmas. You should have been dressed up all cute & pretty opening your prezzies with your wonderful big Sis Darcie. We always think about what you would be doing, what you would look like now, & how your future should have been. 8 Months later & it still hurts as much & always will, we still miss you as much, and ache when we imagine holding you or seeing you again. You have had such a great impact on our lives, as you will always be so special and important to us. We know that you know that, and we just hope that you are having a magical 1st christmas with all the other angels in heaven, just so sorry & heartbroke that you cant be at ours!. Millions of Christmas kisses to our beautiful little angel Baby Lola, our love will live forever xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
Posted on December 28, 2008
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You will be with us, by our side you exist,
You will be with us, the baby we kissed,
You will be with us, though your heart does not beat,
You will be with us, as we walk down the street,
You will be with us, when others we tell,
You will be with us, and our hearts they will swell,
You will be with us, when our spirits are high,
You will be with us, when we are sad and we cry,
You will be with us, we will love you each day,
You will be with us, in our hearts you will stay,
You will be with us, our little angel in the sky,
You will be with us, we will never say good-bye,
You will be with us, when we grow old,
You will be with us, still the baby we did hold.
Posted on November 28, 2008
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On Sunday 23rd November 08 Steven, Darcie, Uncle Adam and I, went to a Remembrance Service at Salford Cathedral (in memory of all the children who sadly passed away in the last two years). We added Lola's remembrance page to a book of remembrance, lit a candle for our little Angel, and received a beautiful flower, and took part in an act of remembrance. It was an extremely emotional but comforting service, as poems were read, and songs played (all of which we could relate to so much).
The Day Begins-
The churning starts as the day begins
In my stomach the familiar fear
Nothing in life can be the same
When you lose someone so dear
So up i get and do the things
One is expected to do
Like eating, drinking, living!
But how can i without you.
'Hello you're looking well' they say
They have no idea they do not know
What it's like to lose a child
To say good-bye, to let them go
Unless they've 'been there, done that'
They cannot know the pain
The dark despair, the agony
Of not seeing your child again
The face i show isn't genuine
It's there to make life easy
For all around who don't understand
And think life's 'easy-peasy'
My daily face gives nothing away
I don't tell them how i feel
I look ok, so must be
But my broken heart won't heal.
Posted on November 27, 2008
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On Wed 8th Oct this year, myself, Ste & family members went to see James Blunt at the M.E.N Arena (Manchester). We booked this particular concert as the songs (in particular CARRY YOU HOME-from the 'All the lost souls' album) are very meaningful to us- in memory of our beautiful angel Lola.
The song 'Carry you home' played in the background that morning in the canteen (at Pendlebury Hospital)- when me & Ste sat in devastation, as we realised that our little fighter was fighting a loosing battle, and we was facing the reality that we may lose our perfect baby girl.
As the song played we stared at each other in disbelief, in floods of tears, we didn't need to speak-for the song seemed to be telling the story of what was to be- it was the beginning of our 'darkest hour'.
After Baby Lola passed away, we played this song over & over, and it truely felt as though the song had been written 'for and about Lola', we also played this song at Lola's funeral.
Although this song & others from the album are very sad- they mean a lot to us and going to hear them sang live at the concert was an overwhelming and special experience in memory of our litle Lola. We all enjoyed it, and we were glad that we went.
Posted on October 29, 2008
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Had a really nice 4th bday party for u baby! cant believe its been four years, sometimes it feels like it was yesterday.
All thinking of you on this sad day, we will always have a place for you in our lives and our hearts.
LOVE YOU X mummy,daddy. 3 wonderful sisters. Look out for your balloons darling daughter x
Nearly your 4th birthday little girl, thinking of you! will make your day as special as possible, look out for the lantern. Love u always Lola x
thinking of you everyday & always our beautiful Lola, love u always from mummy, daddy, darcie, rubi & baby in mums tummy xxxxxx
Thinking of you and your beautiful family today! big love adam xxxxx
ON YOUR 3RD BIRTHDAY-ALL THINKING OF YOU OUR PRECIOUS LITTLE LOLA!!
LOVE YOU DARLING! MILLIONS OF KISSES SENT TO YOU IN HEAVEN!. Watch out for your lantern tonight xxxx
Thinking of you in the new year 2011, miss you everyday forever. Forever in our hearts, beautiful girl Lola X
THINKING OF YOU ON XMAS DAY 2010 BEAUTIFUL ANGEL LOLA, MISS YOU DEARLY, LOVE YOU ALWAYS, FROM MUMMY, DADDY, DARCIE & RUBI, MILLIONS OF HUGS N KISSES TO HEAVEN XXXXX
thinking of you at christmas time baby Lola, missing you always! love & kisses your family, mum,y, daddy, Darcie & Rubi x x x x
Thinking of you baby on the day you fell asleep to be with the angels
forever in our hearts, we love you xx
Thinking of you on your 2nd Birthday! Think about you everyday! love you and your family adxxxx
HAPPY 2ND BIRTHDAY BABY GIRL. LOVE ALWAYS, MUMMY DADDY & THE GIRLS X hope you like your teddy & flowers, and big balloon, and cakey.
We will let off your wish lantern tonight. Thinking of you dearly on your day special one X
Happy 2nd birthday tomorrow Little Lola, missing & loving u always. Darcie talks about u with such love & care, & Rubi adores looking at the beautiful pictures of you, her eyes light up, they both really love their lirrle angel sister.
Mummy & Daddy still ache 4 u, u are a huge piece of our lives, and always always will be.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY sweet child! LOVE U XXXXXXXXXXX
little lola, hope u liked all ur flowers on xmas day,if only they were toys and clothes instead. Been thinkin of u all xmas. So much love to u from all of us. Our darling baby lola love u X
Thinking of you and your beautiful family! you are very much in everybodies thoughts and minds and always will be, love you! adxxx
our beautiful lola,wish u were here for ur second christmas, imagine what u wud be getting up to now if u were with us. All thinkin of u now and forever. Millions of kisses to heaven to our precious girl X
thinking of u and missin u at christmas time our darling lola. Love u always X
Hello our Precious girl...well your little baby sister Rubi says hello and she loves & misses you as much as we do (cant wait to tell her all about you as she grows up, and we have gave her the middle name 'Lola' in tribute to you, we know that this will make her feel proud & honoured when she's older, hope you dont mind chic!!.
we know you are with us all the time & have been watching over us & it almost feels like you are looking after us. We do wish that you was here with us to share our happy times, we now have 3 wonderful girls who we will love and do anything for always.
Huge kisses to heaven, thinking of you everyday n always xxxxxxx
Hey baby lola, mummy has given birth to your baby sister Rubi! she just looks like you and darcie. Mummy and Daddy miss you and talk about you all the time. Mummy is amazing xx
Ruby's coming! mummy looks great! she talks about you everyday! love you xx
Thinking of you everyday n always our precious Lola xxxxxxxxx
Missing you so much on your birthday sweetheart, Easter just reminds me of you, u should be here! x
Happy Birthday Lola! love adxx
'HAPPY 1ST BIRTHDAY DARLING DAUGHTER LOLA, MISSING YOU SO MUCH, THINKING OF YOU ON YOUR SPECIAL BIRTHDAY & ALWAYS'
WE LOVE YOU FOREVER X
Thinking of you always our little angel, coming up to your 1st birthday, promise we will make 'your day' as special as we can. Our love for you grows stronger every day. Millions of massive kisses to you in heaven, love Mummy, Daddy, n Darc x
Happy Valentines Day Baby Lola,
Hope u liked ur first valentines Rose, am sure you would have received millions of 'valentines gifts over the years- you little stunner!. Missing you always, Love you X
Love you always baby Lola,
ur always in our thoughts.
Still see you in my dreams beautiful girl
Millions of kisses to you,
miss you so much
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Baby lola forever in our hearts! your mothers journal entries are amazing! x
Little Sister Lola,
Your big Sister Darcie talks about you all the time, she absolutely adores you, & always will, you would have had such fun together. Love always Big D x
Baby Lola,
Words cant describe how much we are missing you at Christmas & always. You should be here spending your first christmas with us, we can just imagine what fun we would have been having- the four of us & all your family, you would have looked stunning in a little Christmas Dress. Our beautiful angel we love you & are thinking of you always, and treasure the memories of you that we have xxxxxxxxxxxx
We miss you so much baby girl, thinking of you at what should be your first christmas. love you forever special angel X
Miss you loads n loads little lola, always love Uncle ryan x x x x xx
We are thinking of you everday and always, & miss you so much it hurts!. We will always love you dearly our precious little angel baby Lola. Millions of kisses sent to you in heaven. Love always Mummy, Daddy & big sister Darcie xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
charlotte ,steve ,darcie ,are thoughts are with you all what a truley amazing family you all are so strong and so brave, are thoughts are with you all ,and what a lovely tribute to a beautiful baby girl x all are love
every day we think of you and wonder what you would be doing now love you always little lola .x
Charlotte & Steve, you are both so brave & strong! What an amazingly beautiful tribute to your beautiful baby girl, my thoughts are with you & your family!
Much Love!
Beautiful angel up above, we send you, all our love xxx
Hey baby! love u very much uncle adxxx
Miss you little angel xxx
(written by mummy for Darcie)
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keep up the good work lotty
Raised through Walk in the Park 2010
Alison Houghton - sponsorship for Paris Marathon.
Great North Run 2010
Money raised by Ellie, 8, organiser of the fashion show.
Your amazing!
Thinking of you always,
Ella
Total donated: £4,864.63
Target: £10,000.00
Active since: September 6, 2008
Run by: charlotte duckworth
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